Monthly Archives: October 2003

Just imagine the stars How bright they must be tonight magnified be the teardrops brought forth by all our pain It's amazing how cruel life can be how heavy her hand can feel All we want to do is smile … Continue reading →

I remember when I was a child and nothing ever seemed worthwhile I fell to knees my for praying It was the wrong game that I was playing So young but never cracked a smile Just trying to survive for … Continue reading →

I love the night how the shadows fall all around forming a cocoon about us that cloaks the world in darkness But there we lie as lovers lie holding one another tight It's a small pocket of happiness in a … Continue reading →

The world ended last night so we went to the roof of the building to watch it all unfold Underneath a fire-lit sky we unfolded a blanket and set out our food as demons devoured children we devoured our chicken … Continue reading →

There is a magical time When the stars are out But the sun has not yet dropped Below the treetops afar When the sky is a crystal blue And a million shades of black It's when the streetlights come on … Continue reading →

Oh it's easy for you my friend So damn easy To sit upon your ivory tower And spew forth the black venom Of hate and malcontent To sit upon your archer's rest And fire your wretched arrows Into the backs … Continue reading →

Every night I lay there alone in the darkness etching into the wall some magical symbol ripped from ancient lore It's a spell of love and a curse of fate Because it's fate my love that made this bed cold … Continue reading →

Who is this I'm staring at? With tear-filled eyes And quivering lips I've never seen such longing Buried in such heavy eyes But it's the melancholy expression That swallows me whole Such hatred for life And contempt for fate Who … Continue reading →

There were no stars out last night the midnight air was painted black the moon hid behind the clouds like a shy stepchild waiting to shine There I stood under the orange glow of a streetlight tapping out some old … Continue reading →

They say the apple doesn't fall far from the tree just rolls downhill and into the stream carried by the current into the sea washing up on some distant beach The trail I blaze must be my own even if … Continue reading →

Upon the kingdom Nameth in the days of old there was a lovely princess whose hair did shine like gold and though her face was pure the color of virgin snow her heart was black and heavy no love to … Continue reading →

I lit a candle for you my love though small and quaint, it's all I have to give but you know my dear there is not a star in that burns hotter nor an ocean larger than that little candle … Continue reading →

I see it all so clearly the past the future the present I see the blood and sweat the pain and agony the tortured betrayal I've survived, prevailed through days of torment and nights of angst but for what? what … Continue reading →

I've known pain Digging, scratching, scraping pain splitting my soul in two like a knife thrust into my chest a pain washed in tears gone dry and sprinkled in pieces of shattered dreams Yes, I've known that pain I've known … Continue reading →

I remember one day walking up to a cliff I stood very brave on the edge and looked down unable to see the bottom was I for it was hidden in the shadows fearing for my life I backed up … Continue reading →

It’s like standing in the middle of a field with no trees no animals no one Though the grass is green and lush Though the sky is blue the air is warm smelling of sweet scents and life is good … Continue reading →

Walking through the midnight air in the garden of the pure living a life that is not my own tied by vines the light has shown Everybody thinks they know me Everybody thinks they hear me The frightened child inside … Continue reading →

I was a traveler rendered weary by many miles of senseless journey through the forest along the shore upon a flowing stream I rested removed my shoes with the water tested sliding my feet into the water's core My ears … Continue reading →

The pipes moan and drone to the sorrows of their player With every solid key press a heartache soars up to the air and shakes the earth with it's booming voice With every gentle note a tear is turned to … Continue reading →

It's all about the stillness of the bare trees as they stand against the world all lit up and the eerie glow produced by a cold, starless night It's all about the pit pat of shuffling steps from feet walking … Continue reading →

Oh precious light Why are you so dark? your brothers and sisters are all shining bright Are you dark because you're lonely? Are you lonely because you're dark? Please tell me why dear light you're not shining true. Did someone … Continue reading →

Knowing that you are so far away I hug the air around me tight In my mind dreaming it's you I opened my heart as I opened my mouth To kiss your sweet red lips Sometimes I breathe deep In … Continue reading →

Pitter patter The drops fall hard Onto the metal backs Ringing loud and clear Breaking the silence of night And piercing the ears of those below Smash smash The drops hit hard Shattering the calming night Wrecking the sleep that … Continue reading →

All I wanted was to hear you say that you loved me and wouldn't sway but your words came from far away to remind me I'll be alone today All I wanted was to see you All I wanted was … Continue reading →

I walked out one crystal night and the air was cold and black every star held bright and true against it's midnight back The moon hung low above the trees as silent as a ghost and I sat there in … Continue reading →

An ode to night is an ode to darkest sky I live for thee I cry in your arms of black I live for thee to see you come again I look for thee to save me here and now … Continue reading →

If I stand here silent at any time of day I can hear the hounds calling calling me away You see just beyond my realm there's an endless sea of black it's filled with drowning souls but to them I … Continue reading →

There was a time in which this place meant the world to me It was my sanctuary my place for me to be But now time has opened my eyes This place is deaf to all my cries I don't … Continue reading →

I sit here and long to be the way that I was to have an open heart and to sing a song of love but it will never be as such I know that I'm trapped in darkness save this … Continue reading →

I saw something different when I looked into your eyes Although you smiled and said hello I saw through all those lies Because I know I hurt you it's that I can't deny Though you said you forgave me somehow … Continue reading →

I combed the earth in desire Now gasping for breath my life is dire I see the end I see the fire the flames drown out the singing choir Below the cloud that heaven brings Lays a child of senseless … Continue reading →

Sitting alone in the dark of night One bright and sunny day I stared down a piece of paper Not knowing what to say I meant to pour my heart out Let it bleed throughout my pen But then the … Continue reading →

It's on the darkest night after a silent day that love begins to turn cold and hate comes out to play I can only hope that this pain will subside I know that my love is true I want you … Continue reading →

What kind of world is this that treats me like a dog she beats me, starves me, chains me and breaks my skin with it's flog But yet I now expect that I know this world is cruel the human … Continue reading →

I know this world will always do me wrong I now see that pain hidden in each song I loved and lost for a while But now I've forsaken my smile I opened my heart to let the joy inside … Continue reading →

You come to me with your fancy cars your jewels so pure and promised stars You've come to me to buy your soul to get what I take and to fill your hole I've killed your spirit so you must … Continue reading →

I've looked into a mirror and scared myself to death my eyes are so cold and evil it's hard to draw a breath I know that my pain is deep so deep down inside that there is not a single … Continue reading →

I remember us laughing and joking like children in the spring we were the best of friends like brother and sister we shared our secrets and bared our souls we held back nothing but when more was mentioned you smiled … Continue reading →

Whisper to God your prayers to keep away the nightmares Then dare to look inside in that place where you hide So wipe away the tears and tell me all your fears to compare them all to mine you'll watch … Continue reading →

The stars are lonely tonight because I am the only one to see them shine right now The cold and dark air sits still and calm as time moves slower with every single breath I take The air is thick … Continue reading →

I dare not dream lest my hopes be for naught because I know that a tear is just behind my eyes. I know that joy only distracts from the cold cruel heart of life. I can not smile because I … Continue reading →

It hurts too much to write as I sit here to tell you my life my mind wants to cry and fill this page with pure blasphemy and hate. But the pain just grips me tighter as time begins to … Continue reading →

When all the joys are empty joys and all the dreams are hopeless ones When all my thoughts are listless ones that kill those things for which I stand When all my tears are for lost shots at happiness, the … Continue reading →

No matter the friends I keep It's always alone I sleep No matter the people with whom I talk It's alone I shall be forced to walk When night drops cold across the land and I'm searching for someone's hand … Continue reading →

I pound at the walls of my soul until my fists begin to bleed I scream as loud as I can in hopes I'll find some kind of escape. From here the echoes pound in my head. The noise begins … Continue reading →

There would be a wake, an empty wake of which few souls would dare partake There would be tears, some useless tears, from those I've met through all the years There would be talk, a lot of talk some talks … Continue reading →

I am the sane among the crazy men I hear the screams I see the tears I watch them fight back their fears I am the sane I am the mind among the fools I watch them all destroy their … Continue reading →

The world just moves of speeds I can't stand and shoves me aside, breaks my heart and soul. I see my end in sight just past the forest black There I lay A butterfly with midnight wings Invisible yet opaque … Continue reading →

The hour is late but I am alone, my bed is as cold as the nighttime sky, my eyes just hang as low as the moon so bright just overhead My heart is as black as the night around me … Continue reading →

It's love's sick venom that drips from me right now She beat her way inside and holds the key again. A pair of eyes I saw now looms in my mind and haunts my thoughts every time I shut my … Continue reading →